drunk text

Fifth of November, when I walked you home
That's when I nearly said it, but then said, "Forget it," and froze
Do you remember? You probably don't
'Cause the sparks in the sky took a hold of your eyes while we spoke

Yesterday, drank way too much and stayed up too late
Started to write what I wanna say
Deleted the message
But I still remember it said

I wish I was who you drunk-texted at midnight
Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til three, and you can't fall asleep
Waiting for me to reply
I wish I was more than just someone you walk by
Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open, instead of just hoping
You'd feel what I'm feeling inside

April the seventh, and nothing has changed
It's hard to get by when you're still on my mind every day (every day)
Sometimes I question if you feel the same
Do we make stupid jokes? Tryna hide that we're both too afraid to say

I wish I was who you drunk-texted at midnight
Wish I was the reason you stay up 'til three, and you can't fall asleep
Waiting for me to reply
I wish I was more than just someone you walk by
Wish I wasn't scared to be honest and open, instead of just hoping
You'd feel what I'm feeling inside

Oh, and here we go again, destroying myself to keep a friend
Hiding away 'cause I was afraid you'd say no
I wonder if I cross your mind half as much as you do mine
If I tell you the truth, what will I lose? I don't know

I wish I sent you that drunk text at midnight
I was just scared it would ruin our friendship, but I really meant it
I wonder how you would reply