Stream Of Consciousness

I turn the lights down, throw the towel in
And feel pretty much nothing
I think that's the kind of pain that worries me and
I like to think that I'm growing up and that I'm learning
But I have no idea what's underneath

And the foundations I laid down are too light for my skin
And he said he wants to take me abroad
But I can barely fly with my own wings and
Love really confuses me like how much are you supposed to give?
(That's all I had)

I dream in colour
Hate the summer
I act tougher than I really am
I'm a fuck up
Told my mother
I don't love her when she's all that I have

And I'm 21 but feel like I'm getting on
The child in me has been and gone
Isn't that sad?
I dream in colour
Hate the summer
Please don't tell me this is all that I am
It's all that I am

I think deep down I quite like being held at night, you know?
Someone to touch, something to believe in
And there's like 21 reasons as to why I'm here
But like 99 reasons as to why there's just no meaning
(That's kinda depressing and-)

And if I make something out of myself it'll be mad beautiful
Like the way he looked at me when I asked him to dance
This isn't a stream of consciousness
This is more like a big fat fucking no one asked

I dream in colour
Hate the summer
I act tougher than I really am
I'm a fuck up
Told my mother
I don't love her when she's all that I have

And I'm 21 but feel like I'm getting on
The child in me has been and gone
Isn't that sad?
I dream in colour
Hate the summer
Please don't tell me this is all that I am
It's all that I am