Memories on Fire

How come all my good times
Are memories of the past
When I was joking with my friends
And then going back to class
I couldn't wait to grow up
And the thought of it had me gassed
But I couldn't keep up
Because my life was moving fast

Now I'm sitting all alone
In a home I don't own
Just thinking 'bout my past
Because I can't move on
While I'm stressing 'bout my future like,
"Will I always be alone?"
But I think I know the answer
Though the future is unknown

I wish I was a kid again
So I could relive all my happy times
Shooting hoops with my friends
And then throwing them some dimes
Playing games on the same screen
Instead of sitting far appart
But now I'm all alone
In my apartment writing rhymes

About my past spilling grief on
Every single line
While I cry myself to sleep
But pretend that I am fine
For every smile I'm giving
I am weeping ten times
Because I realise
That my smiles are just a bunch of lies

I wanna burn my memories down
To the ground
To the ground

I wanna burn my memories down
To the ground
To the ground

I wanna Burn all these memories
For making me relive them
'Cause if they went up into smoke
Then I would've been relieved of them
And I wouldn't have to think about them
Every single week and
I might even find the happiness
That I seek then

I just wanna smile
Like I did when I was a child
When visiting my friends was
Just a bike ride
When I had my first crush I didn't move on
'cause I was shy
And I got into fights that
Made me wanna cry

Life was more simple back in those times
And I would give anything
To remake my life
'Cause I'm not happy with the outcome
And sometimes I wanna die
Reminiscing 'bout my past
And regreting my whole life

Sometimes I wanna wish my life away
By trading my yesterday
My life should've gone another way
Because I am not okay

I wanna burn my memories down
To the ground
To the ground

I wanna burn my memories down
To the ground
To the ground

Because they keep reminding me of
How my life was
When I was hanging with my friends
More than two times a month
And I had a reason to smile
'cause I wasn't all alone
But now when I look around
I don't see anyone

Every damn day I keep dwelling on the past
How could I let that moment pass?
I was having such a blast
I guess that good times
Aren't always meant to last
They're meant to haunt you
'till you shatter like a glass