Last Christmas

I would've called you twice as much
Told you I loved you just because
Re-listened to stories that you enjoyed
Even if just to hear your voice

I would've held you twice as hard
Saved all your letters and Holiday cards
Recorded you sing on my birthday
So I could still hear you say my name

There's so much I would've done
So much I'm missing
If only I'd have known
It'd be our last Christmas

You taught me to drive, open champagne
To fill up the car when it reached halfway
Held me in your arms to heal my broken heart
But in all your advice, we never talked 'bout this part

And the words "letting go" fill me with regret
That I wasn't there to share your last breath
How much I wish we had one more day
To laugh, cry, and tell you that I'll be okay

There's so much I would've done
So much I'm missing
If only I'd have known it'd be
Our last Christmas

I hope you hear me when I'm praying
As I hold on to your old sweater
And I hope the days I don't believe in anything
Don't mean a second chance to see you's lost to me forever
I hope you hear me say, "Goodbye"
Thank you for all that you have done
Oh there's so much that I wish for
But the greatest gift you taught me is
There's nothing that I cannot overcome

I know I can't go back
And do things different
So I hold you in my heart
All that I'm missing
Still I wish I would've known
If only I'd have known
It'd be our last Christmas