Regrets

I'm trapped in my room
My mind s going like boom
I just wish that I could care less
I just feel I will never get there

Something keeps saying
"You are the worst, don't keep going"
While I text my ex:
I don't know, don't think that's working

I don't want to face the truth that I deserve it
I don't want to realize how I spend my time in bullshit
My bed is a fucking mess, my room fucking stinks
I just wish this was a tale, I m not living a dream

Every time I look at you on my phone screen
I don't have the will to get out, I just suffer rewatching our things
I think about every time we spend together
I think about the things, how I could do fucking better?

Miss you in my band, in my bed, in my life
Miss you when I'm hanging out, I wish you were my wife
I need some time to rest, I need some time to think
I need some time to suicide, I need another drink

Rising, rising
In my mind
I can't deny that
Sometimes I cry

Rising, rising
In my mind
I can't deny that
Sometimes I cry

In front of my own mistakes
I can not see a way out
It remembers me of all of those times I tried to not let you down

I could ask you for forgiveness but for that I need repent
Like for that time I did your sister, and I saw no wrong in that

Sure I'm no good example of nothing
Far from what you would expect from a caring mate
Who is there all-day
Fulfilling your need for attention without receiving a pay

Rock bottom is where I am
But I can not see the ground
Maybe if I keep on digging I can turn my life around

Said our love would last forever
And you nodded your head to me
If I was a bit more clever
Your lie would not hurt as this

Rising, rising
In my mind
I can't deny that
Sometimes I cry

Rising, rising
In my mind
I can't deny that
Sometimes I cry

Rising, rising
In my mind
I can't deny that
Sometimes I cry

Rising, rising
In my mind
I can't deny that
Sometimes I cry