A Man Apart (Intervention)

Momma say I'm the spitting image of my daddy
Deep down, I know she wish she never had me
They ain't have faith in me when I started rapping
I can straight drop, rerock and rewrap it
Every day I be thinking about suicide
My momma kicked me out, she chose love over me
Then wonder why I don't put her before the streets

Streets showed me everything I need to see
I seen my daddy on the concrete
For so many nights I couldn't go to sleep
Nowadays, Auntie-boo talking to me in my sleep
Ain't nobody gon' love me like you love me
I was dirty as shit back in thirty-three
Now the trap jump like Larry Bird, 33
Drac' go off, burn a nigga in the third degree

My auntie don't like me and I don't know why
She can't look me in my eyes, let alone say hi
Shit hurt but I never let it fuck with my head
I blame you for my big cousin being dead
All a nigga ever needed was a place to rest
Now he got a permanent place to rest
Why the fuck you wanna show so much love now?
You ain't love him when he was thugging, don't love him in the ground

When I die, don't come to my funeral
Don't hug my mother, don't try and soothe her
They don't even know what the fuck I be doing
Try and change everybody life with the music
My momma said, "Baby boy, you stress too much
Just like yo' dad, you do too much"
But whatever a nigga do is never enough
My sister told me, "I believe in you

Keep yo' foot on they neck what you need to do"
I said, "I never thought I'd hear them words come from you"
She said, "I don't give a fuck what they say about you
Just know I'm always riding, won't play about you"
I love baby cuz like my baby brother
That's cuz but I call him my baby brother
There ain't nothing in this world that we won't do for each other
Play with 'em if you want, bitch, I'll bury your mother

I told the Grim Reaper to take me home
You ain't gon' give me a ride then leave me alone
I stared death in the face so many goddamn times
Stood ten toes with 'em every goddamn time
Took three Percs tryna calm my goddamn mind
My grandma think I lost my goddamn mind
I know I'll break her heart into pieces
If I ever told her what's on my goddamn mind

Instead I hold it down like everything fine
'Cause they say things get better in due time
Well, I hope it do happen in due time
Before I get locked and have to do time
Treat me like a outcast, wanna single me out
Bullshit back-to-back, still ain't bringing me down
My own fam, they don't like seeing me 'round
It's crazy, my family probably think I'll rob 'em

They act funny with me then I be ready to rob 'em
Don't get me wrong, that's my family, I'm not gon' rob 'em
But if I did rob 'em, it wouldn't be a problem
'Cause I never did nothing wrong to nobody
My momma asked me why I don't be talking
'Cause when I talk, they think I'm retarded
I be stuck in deep thought quite often
It's seven Percs left, I might off 'em

They ain't gon' be happy 'til they see me in a coffin
Or stuck in a wheelchair, not walking
I remember my grandma lied on me for no reason
And still to this day I wanna know the reason
They labeled me as shiesty and greasy
I'm sliding for my dog whenever he need me
Seen Tito in my dreams like a day ago
He said, "No matter what, cuz, just play your role"

Shit fucked me up, I woke up sweating bad
Looked in the mirror, all I saw was my dad
I blinked and BK was behind my back
I blinked one time and everything went black
I opened my eyes, I'm bloody as shit
This the second time this shit happen again
Got me looking for cuz like, "Where he went?"
Can't find Pops, he gone in the wind

This shit ain't right, somebody playing with my head
Seen Auntie-boo at the end of my bed
It been eleven years since she been dead
But every day, that shit still fuck with my head
She had cancer, laying in that hospital bed
Her last request was, "Can you hold my hand?"
I be going through problems you will never understand
'Cause I never even reached out for her hand