Letter To Myself

This a letter to myself
I ain't talkin to no one else, oh

I could swear that it's your goal to hurt me, fightin with you every single day
Yeah you hurt so bad but you love so hard, try to tell myself it's gonna be okay
But it's not, no it never is, goin through the motions in my brain
Sweaty hot, sittin writin, this a letter to myself that imma sing

Who am I to ever give out some advice
To somebody needin help when I can't even handle mine
I'm doin all I can to help, but I don't even love myself
Ok what, where the fuck am I supposed to go from here
Weed and beer ain't enough no more that only gives me fear
I can hear the fuckin devil talkin right into my ear
Every year, fail again, what's my purpose being here
Been tryna figure that shit out for some years
Will I always be my biggest fear?

I could swear that it's your goal to hurt me, fightin with you every single day
Yeah you hurt so bad but you love so hard, try to tell myself it's gonna be okay
But it's not, no it never is, goin through the motions in my brain
Sweaty hot, sittin writin, this a letter to myself that imma sing

I guess that I got more to ask
How come bein all alone with me is such a horrid task
I can't stand me, and I don't know why so it's standing
Uh, the hardest part for me to deal with is that I could end it whenever I like
And I'd like, but I could never hurt my Mom so for her I live this life
No it's not for me, my anxiety has taken a monopoly
It's beatin me, it's winnin
I kinda can't wait til I'm finished

I could swear that it's your goal to hurt me, fightin with you every single day
Yeah you hurt so bad but you love so hard, try to tell myself it's gonna be okay
But it's not, no it never is, goin through the motions in my brain
Sweaty hot, sittin writin, this a letter to myself that imma sing