Void Within

Falling through the sky
I land on my feet
In a place that
I know I've been
I question why
The path before me
Is a road
I'll walk again
I heave a sigh
As I follow the trail
That will lead me
To where I am
My hand waves goodbye
The world starts to spin
I see myself waiting
Around the next bend
Endless circles are boxing me in
Crescent moons are spinning again
I need to find a place to hide
Past the corners of my windswept mind
Illusions cloud my sight
Block my mind, distort what's right
They've left an empty well
Created fear I can't dispel
The foggy haze I see through
Obscures my mind no matter what I do
It will not dissipate, it leaves no space
In this lonely time and place
Nobody's dying to be
A hollow man, a shell like me
But what I am is who I was
I've never changed my lifelong flaws
Everything is falling apart
Every dream I had is dead and gone
I'm left crawling, barely hanging on
But all I can do is carry on

Help me see the road ahead for me
Help me ignore the voices in the wind
That guide me back to where I've been
Help me feel the things I know are real
Help me restore the choices in my life
That led me to this void within

Waiting patiently, on solid ground I stand
I find it more enjoyable than sinking in the sand
I will see myself through this pain
I will attain
Waiting impatiently, on shaky ground I am
Most times it's more desirable than facing who I am
I will find my way through life's terrain
I will attain
Soul-searching to attain a way despite the pain
Soul-searching to attain a way through life's terrain

Moving forward
To fall behind
Holding on
To lose my mind
Checking in
When I'm checked out
Wearing in
What's been worn out
Rising up
To fall back down
Leaving shore
To run aground
Breaking ties
To bind them fast
Looking forward
To what has passed
Killing time
To bring to life
A fractured thought
That won't arrive
A hollow shell
That's filled inside
With all the tears
That I have cried

A life in need of change
Creates a void within
What counts is right here and now
Pick a new path, begin
Everything was falling apart
Every dream I had was dead and gone
I was left crawling, barely hanging on
But now I know I'll carry on

I can see the road ahead for me
I can ignore the voices in the wind
That took me back to where I'd been
I can feel the things I know are real
I have restored the choices in my life
And I'm no longer void within