Bad Decisions

I remember it all like it yesterday
When the label said they wanted me but didn't want Ray
My one regret till this day is that I didn't take it
I could have got a foot in the game
And said I made it
But when I said fuq it I did in ways you can't come back from
Some words was said blood was shed such bad form
I was young in the brain and didn't know actions
Came with a price and the kickback was taxing
Not laughing but kind of sit back and smirk some
Like damn son you bout as bad as they come
1 hundred million people wanted your position
Now look at you worse position from a bad decision
Nothing that I'm doing now is even touching what I could be doing
Lord knows who I could be screwing
Still live my life according to the same principles and codes
Still looking over shoulders still on my toes
When I just want peace
Tranquility in a quite home
And I'm only getting older in this time zone
Will my time come again or has my time gone
Feeling like I'm overthrown

I feel like God knows my heart more than I do sometimes
Yeah I got sight but I'm still blind
Barely getting by in life but I still try

Pistol on my hip everyday I salute you
Keep the vibe and your distance I won't have to shoot you
I'm not a killer but don't push me to it
It was a bad decision that got you here
And God will get you thru it
Let me help you introduce you
Looking at a life that was not fruitful
I changed a lot when people saying that I ain't changed much
Them was the same ones who threw to the wolves
And I came back as the leader of the pack
And I'm only spitting facts none would fight me for the top
So I took over the spot and brought as different level
Holy water bullets and crucifixes surely brings death to the devil's
Love to the rebels and black sheep
Running like a track meet
Filling up the stands now
Loving how I put it down
I tried to tell em I don't play around
I really tried to tell em not to ever play around with me