Couple Things Left

Yeah, yeah-yeah-yeah, alright

Haven't recorded in a while so
Well, by a while, i mean, like a month
So I guess it's not that bad
But, you know what I mean
Yeah

I thought all girls were crazy, turns out it was me this whole time (yeah)
Same way I thought that I was fine, but I was blind, as I unwind
I keep on finding things about me that just fuck me up more (fuck me up more)
Didn't address what I suppressed, and now I'm stressing for sure (yeah, I'm stressing for sure)
I need a blessing even though I'm already blessed, I can't get enough (nah)
It's so fucked how it's never enough (it's crazy)
And shit's been rough, but I've been getting through it (yep)
Just making better music (yep), it's therapeutic how I do it

The release is everything to me, not just the music but the thoughts that's inside
I was down for a couple months and I lost my drive (yeah)
In a moment when I needed it most
Had every reason to be motivated, then I went ghost (then I went ghost)
And didn't do nothing, so now I'm back and tryna prove something (yeah)
I'm only human, and I made some mistakes (yeah, I made some mistakes)
It's time to fix it now and grow from it, it happened for a reason
'Cause if there's no God, I don't know what else to believe in

I don't know what else to believe in, and I'm just glad I'm still breathing
I know I'm here for a reason, that gives me something to believe in
I don't know what else to believe in, and I'm just glad I'm still breathing
I know I'm here for a reason, that gives me something to

Positivity is dope, I'm not tryna dwell on the opposite (nah)
You reading what I wrote for some quotes you got like a lot of shit
To use for captions (yeah), elusive actions to avoid the feelings (feelings)
And I guess I'll never really know how you was dealing with the trauma
But wait, this 'posed to be a happy song (a happy song?)
Every time I try to do it's stupid, it's not lasting long (it's not lasting long)
And then it gets sad again, I'm rapping when I'm feeling down
I guess if it helps to write, the music's like a healing sound

I'm sealing ground with concrete flows to mend the holes I dug (yeah)
Acting like it ain't real or a big deal when I know it was (I know it was)
I shoulder shrug, continue on and use it as a stepping stone (stepping stone)
I spend so much time in my mind, it's like a second home (second home)
I set the phone reminder, so I don't forget follow up
Some days are mad productive and others I know it's not enough (it's not enough)
I got to find the middle ground or something just to stay content (balance)
The meantime, I'll be fine, use these rhymes as space to vent

Yeah, I'm just going to that place I went, and I'm just using this as space to vent
I know that half of this not making sense, but it will soon, real soon, yeah
Yeah, I'm just going to that place I went, and I'm just using this as space to vent
I know that half of this not making sense, but it will soon, real soon

Didn't realize how important it was to communicate (no)
Until I started stressing, had me questioning, losing faith
Need two to play, and who's to say the game ever even started
Maybe being too open just led to you being guarded (I don't know)
And now I'm being guarded too, it's funny how tables turn (it's crazy)
I guess I had to fuck it up, and that was my way to learn (yeah)
My main concern was happiness, and I wasn't getting that (nope)
And now I got a couple months that I'm never getting back

It wasn't all a waste, it definitely served a purpose
'Cause now I know the qualities I'm looking for in a person (I do)
And I will never settle, I can promise you that (promise you that)
Just like now that I've been writing, I can promise you raps (promise you raps)
And I promise I'm back, and I'm better than I ever been (yeah)
It's crazy how I ended it and been productive ever since (wow)
I miss a couple moments, but don't miss all the stress (no)
I'm glad it ended on a decent note, I wish you the best, I guess

I don't know what else to believe in (yeah)
And I'm just glad I'm still breathing (yeah, yeah)
I know I'm here for a reason (reason)
That gives me something to believe in (believe in)
Yeah, I'm just goin' to that place I went (place I went)
And I'm just using this as space to vent (space to vent)
I know that half of this not making sense, but it will soon, real soon, yeah

Will soon, real soon
Real soon, real soon, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, I mean, uhm
I've just been working on life shit, you know
Like just could bounce off everthing and it's kind of hard
It's easier said than done, at lease you know, like
With all these shit going on, all the fucking plates I gotta twirl
To keep this life shit going, like, it's wild
But you know, like, at the end of the day, I'm happy with where I'm at
I'm glad that I'm approaching life the way I am, it's-

Things are good, but I can't complain
I guess the music is how I complain
But I mean, I'm really just venting at the end of the day, so
I hope you feel me
This is that song where I just got it all off my chest, you know
Gotta have songs like that every once in a while, like
I was tryna do some upbeat shit on the first time, if you know
But this is really like where I show you what I'm going through, so
If you've gone through it too, I hope you understand where I'm coming from