tryna find some help

I been I been tryna find some help yeah
I been I been tryna find myself yeah
Why do I push you away why do I always pretend
Why do I have no excuse for when it comes to an end

She only smoking menthols and she flew out here from London
Cus she said she'd sell her soul
Cus she thinks that it's worth nothing
And she rocking all her Latta cus she says she loves the stunting
And I can't even just hear her voice
I guess we'll leave this club then

And I'm driving late I'm bumping fall out boy all on my stereo
Been drinking now for hours and I really need to get you home
The lane's are closing in and
Now you're screaming is the only sound
I'm losing all control I'm sorry sugar cus we're going down

I been I been tryna find some help yeah
I been I been tryna find myself yeah
Why do I push you away why do I always pretend
Why do I have no excuse for when it comes to an end

All I really know is we'll go through this again
We keep going back and forth till we're not even friends
Was this really love or was this all just pretend?
In the game it won't end, I feel this all in my head

I've been honest but I'm really choking
All I want is just not to be hopeless
On and on it's just drowning me like oceans
Costing me my focus, all this shit so potent

I been I been tryna find some help yeah
I been I been tryna find myself yeah
Why do I push you away why do I always pretend
Why do I have no excuse for when it comes to an end

When this comes to an end
Why do I always pretend?

And I'm driving late I'm bumping fall out boy all on my stereo
Been drinking now for hours and I really need to get you home
The lane's are closing in
And now you're screaming is the only sound
I'm losing all control I'm sorry sugar cus we're going down

I been I been tryna find some help yeah
I been I been tryna find myself yeah
Why do I push you away why do I always pretend
Why do I have no excuse for when it comes to an end