The Reward Is In The Pursuit

Run
Hurry up flea
Gotta catch the train for it leaves
Gotta run away with the lead
For the weight of my own indecision
Decide that I've come far enough
And I freeze
Hold my breath
And I try not to breathe much
One false step shit one small breeze
Could be it for the man that has
Literally clawed from to deepest
To get just a little less deep
Damn, that's a lot to think about
I wonder if I'll ever
Get as far as I can see
Cause I can see a lot of pretty things
But the one that's not quite clear
Is the line how to
Get from A to B
Moved west backtrack move east
Went south then shit got deep
They telling me to leave
I tried to get away
By escaping the place
But the place to escape was in me
Well
Well I ain't really moved in a minute
Less I'm talking how
I'm moving independent
And I don't gotta send it
I been taking this shit on my own
And I get personal delivering
The message
Try to count my blessings
But every other second I been
Second guessing every other
Thing that I been blessed with
More quest more questions
Only difference is I'm in it now
It used to have me dipping
Like a test strip
Screams like hello hello
Sorry I was in a daze
And I couldn't recognize
That it was you
Brain like jello jello
Plus I'm not that good with names
I got a lot up on my plate
It isn't food
Must be the devil devil
Got me on a different level level
Maybe I just feel it's sum I gotta prove
So I channel channel
All the energy I got inside my body
As I'm eying up the target
And I line it up and

Shoot
Nothing else I wanna do
Struggle I'm making it through
Crumble and lose
Pick up the pieces and go
The reward is inside the pursuit
No matter who
Holding me back
Got the fire in my eyes
I'm doing fine
Sticking like glue
These are the days of our lives
Reward is inside the pursuit

The reward is inside of that
Like I'm not looking around
Tryna find where they hide it at
Like I'm not overthinking it
Blink and I'll miss it
Despite all the time I had
Conversations with my sis
I know that my tone seems lifeless
When I talk to my dad on the phone
I can tell that he's older
And I just deny it
Like I'm tryna write this shit
He doesn't know what it's like
But I know it's on me to explain it
They say a sign that your growing
Is not that your problems are gone
It's the fact that your problems
Are changing
Just got a house tryna make it a home
But I'm not really in there to make it
Just got engaged to a saint
Who believes in me more than myself
And she pushes me
Even when thankless
Blessings on blessings
Amazing like grace
But what's more amazing is
I'm graceless
No one told me I would hate this
Almost more than I could love this
No one told me bout the changes
No one said it feels disgusting
But no one told me it's the greatest
Stuck between two generations
I'm just blurring out the pain
There's nothing left for me to say
But line up and

Shoot
Nothing else I wanna do
Struggle I'm making it through
Crumble and lose
Pick up the pieces and go
The reward is inside the pursuit
No matter who
Holding me back
Got the fire in my eyes
I'm doing fine
Sticking like glue
These are the days of our lives
Reward is inside the pursuit

Shits crazy

Shoot
Nothing else I wanna do
Struggle I'm making it through
Crumble and lose
Pick up the pieces and go
The reward is inside the pursuit
No matter who
Holding me back
Got the fire in my eyes
I'm doing fine
Sticking like glue
These are the days of our lives
Reward is inside the pursuit