Deep down

Every screaming cry of life dissolves into the night
They all unwind and scatter words until I can't find
So deep, so deep, where daylight recedes, falling into sleep
Reddened fingers bleed, closing eyes, and I see

As if in fear that won't fade
Like control that leaves you drowning in a bloody grave
Like a scar that's only filled up with a bitter rain
All engraved by endless, aching pain

In a herd where all may wander 'round
Unaware of how they'll really end up in the crowd
Another one is lost right now

While I don't know, I wanna know and understand every woe
The fallen tears I've thrown long ago
It doesn't reach, it's out of reach, the voice that won't ever cease
And all the nonsense without a dream
The shadow residing in-between
Has forgotten all it's lost and what it means
So, how long have you laughed at my grief? Just tell me, please
I feel you deep, deep, deep, deep down

In a sudden, cold, bitter rain that showered me as I lay
I came awake and whispered words no one would dare say
The blind, the blind illusions I find, leaving them behind
Only reveals the lies and their vague, faint outlines

As if to kneel on both knees
Like a dagger in my heart that's piercing ever deep
Tearing out and breaking down my every memory
'Till I hold my breath and fight and weep

While the fraying, empty kind of hope
Left its mark upon the world that's fading, ever slow
I only wanna hold you close

Won't let you go, I'm letting go, without a cure that I know
There's still a sign to hold on and hope
No going back, no coming back, the voice that's fading so fast
With every heartbeat that echoed last
I got what I wanted, though
It seems I was overwhelmed by loss and endless grief
So, how long do I have till I leave? Just tell me, please
I call you deep, deep, deep, deep
Deep, deep, deep, deep down