My Dark Well

1992 I was born
Living a life with no source
Even though my heart has been torn
I still grip the mic and I soar
I, poured my heart out
And still I found out
It's never enough to be throned
I get no reply but I still derived
From that suffer and pain that I've known
Go

All that shit you're talking isn't all bad
Sometimes I forget just who I am
Living with depression isn't all bad
It helps me remember I'm alive

I've done wrong but It's done me too
Never forgetting on what it put me through
I get more shrugs than ever get more love
The second I get a minute I'm feeling there's no trust
And so I hang up the phone
Won't hear my voice but a dial tone
Don't get near me I might explode
I can never be controlled when I'm alone
Yeah

I'm trying to live my life to the fullest
All of this money I can't take it with me
So I've just been spending and spending so quickly
Those wicked decisions be haunting my memory
Maybe I cannot escape it
The thought of escaping
Has got me anxious I can no longer take it
Been drowning my pain and my sorrow in liquor
So much that I shiver and quiver
But isn't it crazy how we keep on chasing
The thought of a feeling of being complacent
But yet we keep slicing and dicing these vices
Been smoking and drinking I'm steadily sinking
Been battling over and over these monsters and demons
They're over possessive they tugging and screaming
Determined to keep me inside of the dark
And they're feeding me lie's like that's where I belong
But I know that that shit isn't true
Regardless of all of the dirt that I did and I still do
I keep on running through hurdles and hills too
Popping the tops of these bottles and pills too
I've been seeking
For something I really know I can believe in
The waters I'm treading I won't dip my feet in
They asking me why I say I've got my reasons

Am I ashamed or accomplished I can't tell
I have created my own hell
Are you feeding me flowers or bad spells
I feel like I'm stuck in this dark well
Spinning around in this Caldwell
Who can I trust I don't know anymore
Cause my burdens are coming to settle the score
And I'm gone