Ache for Sunrise

These sable nights are getting so damn cold
I'm wide awake and feeling so alone
As the hours seize my bones
I can't keep my eyes closed
So I take a minute just to slow it down
But phantom thoughts come up from underground
And resurface themselves
My worries and my doubts

I'm peace deprived because one senseless soul
After petty lies is still so beautiful
And the moon seems to provoke
A mess of words I should have spoke
And I'm more grieved than you could ever tell
For wasting pennies on a wishing well
When I could be rich by now
And time's too brisk to count

Well I'd give anything to fall asleep tonight
Just for a couple hours to flee my lethal mind
But even dreaming feels
Way too real
I think too much

I start to feel that maybe I'm okay
Then I'm corrupted by the thought of change
And what agony it is
To hate someone you miss
But all these scars will turn to tales of pride
When all the bleeding finally subsides
I'm apathetic and tired
Of being afraid to feel desire

Well I'd give anything to fall asleep tonight
Just for a couple hours to flee my lethal mind
But even dreaming feels
Way too real
I think too much

And I crave that morning birds song
That claims that this night's long gone
Cause I feel helpless and abandoned
Forsaken, empty-handed
I'm paralyzed by
This ache for sunrise

Ever think the stars are broken dreams
Past mistakes and opportunities
That we let slip away
Capsized by the day

Oh I'd give anything to fall asleep tonight
Just for a couple hours to flee my lethal mind
But even dreaming feels
Way too real
I think too much