Back Right Here

Been up for a couple of days
Slept for a couple of hours
Thinking about suicide in the shower
Wondering if this going to be my last letter
Demons talking to me when it gets darker
Telling me to get that nine millimeter
Squeeze on the trigger, venture on to the nether
Never thought I'd be back right here

Back in this mind set again
Back to wishing things would end
I can't go on and pretend everything is fine when I know I'm lying, and inside im dying
Trying to cope with my life
Have a kid and a wife
I should be happy, right?
Wrong cause I'm thinking about grabbing a knife, cuttin' my wrist, taking the risk to feel something again, even if it's right before my end
Still I find hope
Even with depression tied around my neck like a rope
They tell me to pray hard like I was the pope
But my prayers slide back down on a slope
Maybe it's nothing and I'm just making problems feel bigger like I'm looking through a telescope
Or maybe it has something to do with my horoscope
But I still just don't know cause I

Been up for a couple of days
Slept for a couple of hours
Thinking about suicide in the shower
Wondering if this going to be my last letter
Demons talking to me when it gets darker
Telling me to get that nine millimeter
Squeeze on the trigger, venture on to the nether
Never thought I'd be back right here

I just don't know what to do
Go to work, come home, write these lyrics, sip on a some brew til i feel the booze take over
Tell myself tomorrow I'm going be sober
But I got another bottle and I start to feel my thoughts get little hostile
Saying I'm worthless and ill never be a good role model for my son
And thats that shit that hits me
So i take another shot, cause I don't want to believe what my thoughts tell me, what my demons say to me
Forcing me to be something that I'm not
Dead inside, and I feel my heart start to rot
Try to talk to God, but he's not there
And I'm looking to the sky, why am I here?
Try to talk to God, but he's not there
And I'm looking to the sky, why am I here?

Been up for a couple of days
Slept for a couple of hours
Thinking about suicide in the shower
Wondering if this going to be my last letter
Demons talking to me when it gets darker
Telling me to get that nine millimeter
Squeeze on the trigger, venture on to the nether
Never thought I'd be back right here



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Writer(s): Landis Cly
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