Fade

My head is spinning so fast
Laying here in my bed
Wondering how i can do more
I don't think i'm doing enough
I try to be there for my friends
Without my fear creeping in
That they'll find someone better
I think about it till my head hurts

Cause i've been the one that's been replaced
And I don't wanna be her again
The slow fade hurts the most
When you're the one that's left behind
And that's how i got my fear
I'll be the only one here
When the day is done
I'll be the one to fade
All over again

And I don't get why you can't see it
If all three of us have a problem
Then you're probably the problem
I've got some ghosts in my past
They leave me staring at the fan
Round and round they take my feelings
Clock wise time didn't heal me
I wish they'd all lay to rest
Get buried with the words they said
I can't forget but i'll move on
Burn the letter forgive the name calls

Cause i've been the one that's been replaced
And I don't wanna be her again
The slow fade hurts the most
When you're the one that's left behind
And that's how i got my fear
I'll be the only one here
When the day is done
I'll be the one to fade
All over again

Cause i don't know if i'm
Burying my past or hiding my insecurities with a shovel
I'm sinking down into my mattress while they go six feet in a hole
I'm telling myself i'm brave while the girl in the mirror still cries
Cause some words still don't sit quite right

I've been the one that's been replaced
And I don't wanna be her again
The slow fade hurts the most
When you're the one that's left behind
And that's how i got my fear
I'll be the only one here
When the day is done
I'll be the one to fade
All over again
All over again
All over again
Like i did back then