amends

And I know that I'm back here
I couldn't shake the feeling of these past years
It's not even about you, or the lost tears
It's my own personal world that I created

And why is it I told you everything about it
From a curved view?
I can't even utter the words
I'm not able to lift this curse
'Cause I'm the one who had cast it

And now I have to make amends with it
Though longevity is my enemy
I will constantly fear your name, the hair,
And everything you made it out to be
In collateral damage you still have me
In doubt of my reality
But now I have to make amends with it

You multiply, divide yourself in my dreams
You're still found somewhere whenever I bleed
No simple bandaid could cover you
No

This is not a life I'd envisioned I'd have the day we fell apart
A couple months passed and I'm lost
Downing drinks, broke it off
Four more years, the world's over us

And now I have to make amends with it
Though longevity is my enemy
I will constantly fear your name, the hair, the eyes, the stares
Things I don't even know about anymore

Please let me get ahold
I wanna let you go