Someday

Yeah
Kept telling myself I've got to get it cause I deserve it
I just needed to give myself some time to surface
At the top
Don't be fooled man it's all a circus
But you've got to jump through a couple hoops
And it'll all be worth it
It's all mind state be mindful in every way
Pay them no mind, but never forget a word they say
You could never make it and
They don't see a way
And what you run towards ain't no lights in tunnels
You're just running away
But hey
Get used to it
Cause it won't stop
Chitter chatter doesn't matter words could never walk
Sticks and stones hurt a bit
Yeah I've felt some
But the right words aimed and pelted could make you feel like you fell from
The pedestal they put you on
One that helped you get this strong
One that built you up
To be the best that they could take you from
So you never rest
You're just working til it hurts at home
Sleep is overrated when you're fighting for what other's own
That'd be pole position
A damn cold position
Yeah it's got its perks
But the work hurts to hold position
Too many fake blokes blowing their own smoke and wishing
On the same stars you hope are guiding you on your mission
Obvious division
It's all in composition
Transitioned from the quiet one to be the one that's spitting
Spilling stories sipping from the pools in my imagination
But it's democratic in this music nation

I've been falling
I've been crawling
From the bottom everyday
I think I need that light
Cause it feels darker today
I've been falling
I 'be been calling
From the bottom everyday
Maybe they save those stars
For when we need 'em someday

The fans hold all the power
Freedom of speech is sour
Restricted to fables, fairy tales I write within the hour
They need to get you still
But still feel that you real
I could dumb it down, sell my soul for the fans
Ms. Hill, please I beg of you
Please tell me what to do
You built the realest house they vandalized it and evicted you
Made you slip and trip
And while you were down they kicked you too
I guess being honest nowadays is the worst thing you can do
So I keep to myself
Til I don't know myself
Like the thing you hid away
Now it's not on the shelf?
You know how that feels? You know how I felt?
Sleepless nights and pillow fights no cold side of the pillow helps
But I never shed a tear
At least not in front of you
I held it back for years cause you told me that's what real men do
Real men, huh
Real smooth
In reality this road is cobblestone and you're alone
To stub toes and break ankles in potholes
No bed is warm enough to call home
Just you and you
Learning as you do
All I got is you
Hope I never lose myself
Broken compass no excuse
Momma I know you're always right
So I don't know why I still do
You say I never learn til it hurts
No words have ever been more true
You watched me bleed
Beaten black and blue
But pain is knowledge
And there's some wisdom in this bruise
I promise

I've been falling
I've been crawling
From the bottom everyday
I think I need that light
Cause it feels darker today
I've been falling
I've been calling
From the bottom everyday
Maybe they save those stars
For when we need 'em someday

This is for the masses
Bring out the masters
The outcasts we laugh at
This one is yours
To wave your lighters
At
Have a laugh
Have it back
Voices said it was impossible
Now noises of the past
I'm focused on enjoying every second while it lasts
Burnt the bridges to my past, so if I fall
No going back
Not that I'd ever want to
I never think of that
Buried my chest of skeletons I knew the closet wouldn't last
If fear is the heart of life
I must be frightened out my mind
I can't remember a day I wasn't at the edge with mine
Time
My only worthy opponent
Mirrors show me another
That I gotta learn to cope with
Every time I choked the Heimlich just wouldn't cut it
It's hard to save yourself from you
When you believe you can be perfect
I will be
I told myself
I would be
I could be
I should be
Learned quick
I won't be
Best lesson learned it removed a lot of stress
Just being better than the last me's giving my shoulders rest
Blessed with curses
Searching for life in hearses
Feeling worthless for every breath not afraid of death
Too much on my plate, heard that too many times before
I guess I eat a lot for the day I can't eat no more
I'm just saying
If you been doing you
Continue
They can say they understand
But they'll never know what you been through