Vocalized Thoughts

I'm just smoking and
Chillin right now
Reaching even as
I'm on my way out
High stepping through the clouds
Still wondering what
This shit is all about
Student on a lifelong quest
Knowledge my kevlar helmet and
Bullshit proof vest
An active well exercised
Mind never rest
Never settles for what they peddle
My mental heavy like metal
Kicking up dirt but my
Riot will be anything but quiet
I'm going to bring light
And radiate like ultraviolet's
Or at least I'll die trying
Forever defying the odds
Too persistent to push pause

For better I rebel
Until my heart fails
Destined to be a story often told
Can never see myself
Completely heartless and cold
My life was in disarray
So I stepped away
Distant is how I choose to stay
A ghost
Shadow slowly fading
They say in his image
We're made in
Who is he
And where is he now
Seems like the lost
Have been searching
Since the first time this
Mother ship broke down
A brother like me believes
The answers lie within
Even as our resolve
Is wearing thin
Like between the thighs of
Old ass sweats or jeans
In today's world it's
Survival by any means
I try not to have any enemies
But I can't please them all
So short I fall still I stand tall
Such is life and all it's glory
Sometimes it feels like purgatory
At least how it was
Described to be
When the wash was on
And I was told to believe
But that just wasn't for me
A free thinker I be
I see beyond and through
Too old school to
Be on that new
Age math
World translation
An open mind is my salvation
I leave haters salivating
Ignorance is debilitating
But it's like me and sugar
I'm addicted and
Utterly conflicted
The damage self inflicted
Premeditated
Which probably
Makes it worse
In this case
Free will is a curse
Full submerged
In over my head
Holding my breath
It's amazing that
I have any left
It's all just prolonging my
Imminent death
What can I say
I love life so I pray for
More than just today
If you don't inner stand
Then it's not meant for you
Life is an acquired taste
For some it's a waste
For them space is the place
To watch time race
With this flesh comes
Joy and pain
So much to lose and gain
Some can't stand the rain
Like Ralph Johnny and Ne
Heartbreak consumes
We say they're gone too soon
Not realizing their adventures
Lie beyond the moon
Every day lived is a lesson
In time travel
The bass makes the stocks rattle
You don't want to see me in chess
Dominoes or with a
Ping pong paddle
These poems write themselves
My fingers move nimbly
Controlled by a greater force
I credit the universe
As the source
I just try to give the most
With this gift I've been giving
After the last three I know
I'm fortunate to still be living
I can't lie and say
I wasn't tripping
For the universe knows
As the life in me depletes
The love grows
I wish I would have known
Time would be my greatest foe
I would've used it more wisely
Thought more of who
I let stand beside me
We live
We learn
We struggle
We earn the right
To see tomorrow
Another day to play and
Let the inner child run wild
Even if it's just with
Our imagination
And somewhere along the way
We stop procrastinating