Unspoken

I feel fuckin depressed
Like I have nothin left (nothin)
To keep goin
But im ma suck it up
And puff out my chest (I got this)
Cuz I'm a man
My parents taught me
Not to be nothin less (hell nah)
I gotta grind for my family
So they don't deal with this stress (fuck that)
Yeah I know that I'm blessed (yep)
But my heads still a mess
I gotta conquer all these demons
Satan's burnin my flesh
Found out that life is a test
And I hate it to death (fuck)
Found your stairway to heaven (I'm not a sheep)
But couldn't climb up the steps
I picked my own fuckin lane
Cuz I couldn't ride with the rest
I know there's more I should confess
But its too tough to digest
So its on to the next
These gold teeth ain't to flex
I'm just tryna get this money
And like your khakis I'm pressed (yep)
I'm made faulty by design
Like someone cast a hex
I think I might be possessed
It's got me screamin at em
With my fuckin foot on they necks
Controlled Chaos til death (I bleed this)
Thin on the Ground Records
Til I breathe my last breath

And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone it's like I'm drowning in an ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Some times it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken

And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone it's like I'm drowning in an ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Some times it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken

This bipolar disorder
Use to cause social distortion (yep)
But my range is powerful now
I'm feeling mighty I'm morphing (get em)
And I ain't reach my optimal prime yet
I'm just transforming
To all you other bumblebees
This is forewarning(tell em)
You touch my Queen
I'll have a whole team of hornets swarming
Applying more pressure than Muggsy Bogues
And Zo Mourning (ugh)
You thought you brought some heat (nah)
Until you feel my flames scorchin
You can't get your thoughts clear
Because your brains storming (fuck)
And you can't hear yourself think
Because the pains roaring (ahhh)
And you can't even see straight
From all the rain pouring (wooh)
Cry me a river with those crocodile tears
While I'm unboxing a stockpile of juvenile fears (SICK!)
My self awareness is key
I know who Ruda's meant to be
These other rappers rudimentary
Their style is elementary (ugh)
My dear watson
Watch me spit this toxin (yep)
Watch as I sprinkle a little chaos upon the nonsense (wooh)

And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone it's like I'm drowning in an ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Some times it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken

And I don't even know where I'm going
I'm feeling all alone it's like I'm drowning in an ocean
I don't even know where I'm going
Some times it just feels like I'm going through the motions
I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to gain the clarity I crave through commotion
And I don't even know where I'm going
It's hard to pick apart the truth with words unspoken