Procaine (feat. Autumndropsdead)

Break me apart, I'll probably like it anyways
Dirt in my heart, was the cause of the heavy weight
Living ain't smart, but it's better than eternal pain
With the way that I'm feeling right now, there'd be no way

Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine
I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking
You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it
I've lost grasp, will I get it back?

My only consolations momentary to my past
I reach out, both my arms, but the sky won't do it back
let it go, lay to waste, I may not be here tomorrow
Every day feels delayed, bitch, I feed off of the sorrow

Shits not a movie, this my real life man my old girl is a groupie
They wonder if I'm okay, I don't know I say it loosely
I just ran out of Percs, need some more before I'm moody
They can kill me that's the beauty
Sober days, no cannot relate
Ex mad, yeah, get out my face
Can't talk she busy at raves
Laced pills, yeah, they are my favs
Death soon, oh, this is a race
Not worth the stress, she in love with the chase
In an out, I ain't leavin' a trace
Crackin' cards, but beatin' my case
Don't wanna talk about it
Don't wanna think about it
Now you stalkin' on my page, I know you read about it
She still playin' all my songs, she think she slick about it
And I'm never goin' rehab makin' sure about it

Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine
I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking
You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it
I've lost grasp, will I get it back?

The tide casts I can feel you tugging on my heart
It's getting colder, hold her
It was a set up from the start
Hold it still, steady pace, but it never works out
My wrists break from the rain as I fall to the ground

I've been up for two whole days
I can't sleep blow out my brain
Xanny bars help numb the pain
Need your love right in my veins