deep

I know I'm long winded
In the words I say and songs I write to you
And half the time I apologize when I don't need to
But I have never been where I am
I have never put my heart in someone else's hands
And I'm afraid

It's nothing that you've said or done to me
Or maybe actually it's everything
And I know that you told me that I can always tell you
But that doesn't mean it doesn't scare me

I don't trust my thoughts when they're left all alone
They have a tendency to find the lowest they can go
So I keep it all inside so I don't turn into an overbearing
Burden of a person that you have to lay beside

I know I'm Long winded
In the words I say and songs I write to you
And half the time I apologize when I don't need to
But I have never been where I am
I have never put my heart in someone else's hands
And I'm afraid
Oh I'm afraid that I'm in way too deep
Oh I'm afraid that I'm not the man that I should be
I'm afraid that I'm not the one you need
Oh I'm afraid

I almost didn't show you the song that I'm playing
Because I didn't want you to think that you're the one I'm blaming
For my head and my heart looking past reality
And saying the worst case is the only explanation

But you're hearing it right now so I guess that I'll be honest
And tell you that my mind has almost always got you on it
How the days and miles between our conversations feel like lifetimes
I live and die in the silence that comes when we're apart

I know I'm Long winded
In the words I say and songs I write to you
And I apologize when I apologize when I don't need to
But I have never been where I am
I have never put my heart in someone else's hands