Flow

I got my toes dipped in, never felt this before
I've got the flow I'm tapped in all that exists is this moment
I'm hoping, that I can make it last but I'm choking
Trying to swallow my past isn't hopeless
I'm frozen
Am I chosen
I'm hoping
A little substance gets me started that boy's been up to something
It's so disgusting how I crave to not feel this way

It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim
Just let me settle inside my body for a minute yeah
I don't want to die I want to be fully in it
It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim

I just want a dash of peace
Build myself up then crash, repeat
Fiending for a fast relief
But I keep tripping over past belief
Naturally, you know I play it off so casually, with some apathy
But it's all, yeah it's all, yeah it's all, it's all I think about now

It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim
Just let me settle inside my body for a minute yeah
I don't want to die I wanna be fully in it
It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim

And this consciousness is a nuisance
I wanna be consumed by what I'm doing
I wanna be consumed by what I'm choosing, (Choosing, choosing)
Get a clue kid, why don't you stop using me
Stop abusing me, and don't get used to me
Am I useless without you, or do I choose to be, do I choose to be, yeah

It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim
Just let me settle inside my body for a minute yeah
I don't want to die I wanna be fully in it
It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim

I found a reason to want to be me
I said that's all the feeling that I need
Won't believe me till I get something right
Won't believe me till fuck, how is it

Honestly, I was sorry that you showed me that side
Because I think it forced something to die
Maybe some stones are better unturned
Now I try to write about something that's not me
Unlikely to turn out well
Because my eyes are looking inside me and I'm tryna get them out of my shell

Just let me settle inside my body for a minute yeah
I don't want to die I want to be fully in it
It's irrational
It's the price you pay
It's the letting go
That's what I want to claim
Just let me settle inside my body for a minute yeah

(Your skin doesn't separate you from the world, it's a bridge)
(Through which the external world, flows into you, and you flow into it)

Doesn't last long just get what you can
I was so wrong thought I needed a friend, in the end
All I needed was flow
Now it's all gone and I don't know what to do
Now I don't know what to say, now I don't know what to write
Now I don't know what to play, and it keeps me up at night