beenawhile

Hey, uh, it's me again
I've called you a couple times and you haven't picked up
So I thought I'd leave you a voicemail
You know its, its been a long time since we talked
And you know I've just really been missing you
And I'd love to know how you're doing
You know, so much has changed and
Yeah anyway, um
There's something I've been really wanting to talk to you about
So if you get a chance
You know no pressure but
I'd love if you gave me call
Ok, call me back
Bye

So should we talk?
I think I might still miss him
Would it be worth it
Would he even listen
Been scared to call
I mean I look way different
Will you recognize me?
Will I be forgiven?
Heard your voice in my dreams
Like nothing ever changed
Look you up on Instagram
And now your head is shaved
You look different too
It seems like we're the same
I've been missing you
I hope it's not too late

Always insecure
I wish I could just let it go
But I don't think that there's a cure
Unless I sell my soul
Stuck in my head
I think I just might lose it
Wish that I were tripping
Fuck I'm so damn lucid
You say love me
Why don't you prove it
If it's in your mouth
Go on and chew it
Spit it out
Yeah please abuse it
Unless you're lying
I fucking knew it

Fuck
I
Can't
Catch my fucking breath
Running out of excuses and
I never get to rest
Fuck this shit
No more hurt
Bury it in six feet of dirt
Fuck that shit
No more crying
Fuck that bitch
No they weren't trying

Pick it up pick it up!

So listen I've been thinking bout you
Miss your voice inside my head
I wanna hear about what you've been through
I got some shit I hope gets said
Can I call for a few
I hope I don't make us a mess
I got something I need to tell you
Get off my chest before I'm dead

*mumble*