Ad Nauseam, Pt. 1

I should take you by the hand, but you wouldn't care
I should tell you I feel wrong, but you'd only care
To immersing yourself in the life that lays out there
Through the screen of your cellphone, so I wouldn't dare

Autumn turned my soul grey and shriveled
I wish to go back in time, in the spring of you and me
Still, you seem infatuated, but obviously not with me
'Should've kissed you rather than those empty bottles necks

I tried and I tried to be a better man, those battles against myself
I keep going ahead when I can, reaching for you clumsily
I tried and I tried to be a better man, those pills on the nightstand
Cigaret, and whisky, and a dreamless sleep

I feel like I'm walking barefoot on sharp shards
I feel like I'm walking barefoot on it
Yeah on the sharp shards of my mistakes
I swear I've been searching for clarity
So much that I've shut down the light instead
And it hurts under my skin, to the marrow of my bones
But you pay no attention to me
'Been watching you drifting away
Sailing on the praises other men sing to you
Ooh I wish they were dead
And I wish you were dead for none to be loved by you

I tried and I tried to be a better man, those pills on the nightstand
Keep me going everywhere I can, searching for you awkwardly
I tried and I tried to be a better man, those battles against myself
Cigaret, and whisky, and the flavor of your nightie