The Schizophrenic

Yeah

I'm bout to bleed out my pain as I rap this verse
I'm bout to call my lightskin to tell her she's my world
To reassert that I'm the Diamond to her shining pearl
Unfurl
That's the motion my heart makes, the sight of her leaves me shook
Inspiration for my ideas, I don't need to write a hook
Line after line, the content of my book is laced with her love, she's mine so don't you dare give that girl a look

There are times when our relation may appear irrational
Times we trade insults but not proof that we're compatible
I guess these petty squabbles are impractical
But don't mistake that for incompatibility
The thought of me leaving her is just so laughable and silly

We go to bed at night
We could be fresh off a fight
But she's cuddled up under me just squeezing me tight
We wake up in the morning, her face is displaying a visible plight
So I immediately assume that something isn't right
I might
Get my shawty ring
Alright, ain't but a thing to get you that white gold bling
Shine bright
Her potential's through the roof, to my side she clings
If she leaves it'll sting, so I take all the bad because the good it also brings
Yeah

Like the ever changing tides, she has an ever changing dynamic
I put up with the stress because who you fall in love with isn't how you plan it
Permission to make you happy? It's granted
Drop the bomb of the truth for detonation? It's planted
But then I'm shunned, given the side eyes so ever-slanted
Like damn it
Can I even make you happy?
Can you free the bonds that you set up for me to fall in and trap me?
Please look past what I'm lacking

With that gave birth to the complete realization
That putting a ring on your finger is a long shot situation
I want to commit to you but I suffer from dire mitigation
You slow my efforts with your persona sometimes without provocation

But I'm still here, hard to drop like a bad habit
I crave your attention, like those rabbits I must be rabid
We grew close very quickly, some would say it was rapid
You can't control who you're attracted to, so the love may not be valid
It's like pulling teeth
Forcing barbie dolls to fornicate without an exchange of the parts
The love was brief but it doesn't mean that you have departed from my heart
I wanted to pursue happiness but the futility of it all was apparent from the start
Mario kart
Bumping heads like a head on collision
This isn't how I thought it would be nor how i saw it envisioned
Now I'm malnourished, craving more, I need some provisions
You cut me deep in my heart, it left an enormous incision

But I'm still here
I haven't left like all those that you know in the past
God will send you to first while they're forever in last
I'll do anything for you, what is there not to grasp?
I wish i could tighten my grip on you, but I have a faulty clasp
To take you on a night out, I would surely cut class
You're so much more than your curvature in the front and the back
I'll gladly show you off, post pictures with hashtags, you make me want to be open so I always want to brag
Despite your shortcomings
Despite the aberrations
For you, I'll always come running, there won't be hesitations
There won't be instigations
Only blessings and savings
I want to make you happy but you have to help me, we're partners, we're dating

Will you switch on me and disappear? Am I simply not enough?
I guess only time will tell, but I won't call your bluff
You're a Diamond in the rough
But I'm here to pick you up and polish you
Embrace my support, don't let the death of your paw paw demolish you
I guess I shouldn't speak like this, you just make me too comfortable
Hopefully you don't get mad at the fact that I put my frustrations in song
Hopefully one day we can have a perfect life together and move on

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