Marie-Therese's Song

How am I
Supposed to pretend I don't know every curl in your hair
How am I
Supposed to deny that you've seen how my soul is laid bare

Oh I love you, say I love you, and your words paint me pictures that mark like a stain
Oh I want you, say I want you, yes I know then why is it you always walk away

And I'm left here crying with mascara running and perfume I picked back in June
Stuck to your coat like a whisper of hope, making love while the secrets take root

And I don't find it easy
To love you like this
In bright summer scenery
But who do you miss when you're here
Is it me or is it her
My dear
Does she know me like I know her
It's clear
That I want the strings she holds near
But you'll never attach them here

How am I
Supposed to describe how my heart starts to whither inside
How am I
Supposed to be yours when she swore you an oath dressed in white

Oh I lie for you, I cry for you, I hate myself wondering where did my pride go
Is this how we fall in love, it isn't pretty but kicking and screaming we go

And I'm left here peeling back layers of healing in cold sheets that still smell like you
Holding my breath when the floors creak and letting my mind fantasize that it's you

And I don't find it easy
To love you like this
In bright summer scenery
But who do you miss when you're here
Is it me or is it her
My dear
Does she know me like I know her
It's clear
That I want the strings she holds near

Oh I want the strings she holds near
Is it me or is it her
My dear
Does she know me like I know her
It's clear
That I want the strings she holds near
But you'll never attach them here