Too Much for Them

Crossing old roads steps molded for you
From the old book they will raise you true
God forbid you inhibit motion
And make your pastor call you hated
You should've listened to your fourth grade self explain it
When in the back of a bible you drew Satan

How long did it take you to realize
The real reason why they wouldn't look you in the eyes
Disbelief when you were told
Lutherans couldn't be so cold
Token of the school bold
You were breaking mold
God's mold melting gold
You should shut your mouth and fold
Token kid we pity
'Cause you really need forgiving

I guess those years were not spent growing
'Cause you were focused on surviving
They told me how to be a good soul for my savior
And then I had no one to save me from my hatred later

Prayed for light every night
Like a holy lullaby
Told yourself it's really true
Second guesses weren't a view
All along this road behind
Made me worship out of fright
Have a non secular thought
Don't know if it's mine or not
Maybe it should be left
Moving on is for the best
Try to get it out of my head
Images of pews and rows