Verse Of Fear

Where am I at?
My soul has been dead?
Can I control all the dread?
Will my mom be glad?
But how Bout dad? but how bout dad?
Will my mom be glad?

I'm in the game, who I am?
All I do just burn myself on my flame
All my step just took myself
Into the mayhem
In the end all I do just a self blame

I think I'm gonna see the failure
For myself has been being a bad liar
I kill my character cuz I'm drowning
In the bad culture
(And im proud, ngent*t)

Meski semua mimpi harus terkubur
All night feel hidup paling Makmur
Kehilangan alur
Bawa diri tuk dibentur
Bagai pion dalam catur
Cuman jadi budak kultur
Bawa diri tak teratur
In the sober life hope masa depan subur
Ku sudah takabur
Satu langkah dengan kata hancur

Another morning I'll keep running
Sit in the dark
God help cause I can't moving on
Then rumi talk
Be patient cuz the dawn will coming

Learn from the pain
Either sometime those
Make me feeling insane
Like I get stuck on my brain
The bloods comes out of my vein
Oh my God and then I kill my mind
They said "everything's gonna be fine"
Yet they keep lying

Ask to myself when I can won?
He said I lost it on my own
Myself has been gone

Mama now I just want to say sorry
I grow up so different
From my childhood memory
When was lil I said
I'll make you feel happy
I'll be great man and make a lot of money
But now what?
I can't live without your money
Maybe I'll make you (unhappy)

Stuck on my puzzle
I've been die long on this battle
My life don't ever matter
Ain't got power anymore
Well I always waste my hour
Busy chillin with em mtfk
Who doesn't care when I feel tired

All the pressure in my head
Make me can't go ahead

Now I can't moving on
Why the fuck life still goes on

When im drown, scream why I never win it

Now I realize I'm in the wrong way
Can I win myself back? he has go away
But I should gonna find it
And I regret for all I did
All I've done put myself on cheap bid
Someone said
You're the only captain on your life kid