February 14th

The ones I loved born today but we don't talk now
I think it shifted when I heard my brother gunned down
I Remember all the times we would sit and talk
Told you can pick the pin up and start doing art
Said your momma Needed help you need to do your part
Conversations end in tears wish that we could start
Too busy chasing after cash once you found the spark
It's too hard to find the pieces when it falls apart

They use to tell me valentine's was a day of love
But yet I sit here reminiscing bout the things that was
Like how I thought we had a chance once you to moved to Sac
But the fear to prove him right is what held it back
It's been years since we talked but I can picture back
All the secret's that we shared could never utter that
Broken in pieces I would wipe tears right off yo face
As I ensured you you was gold never second place

Never feeling good enough I done shared the view
Only the insecure's men could ever fumble you
But if you listen name won't mention hope you found what's you
I believe in giving distance shows what's really true

I believe the purest hearts can go heal the room
Made some sacrifice in life to try and heal they wounds
Sometimes relationship you love you gotta walk away
The hardest part to know they flawed and still give em grace

What happened to the bond as brothers that we used to share
As I sit and stare at pictures we was different there
I know it's simple I can easy go and dial yo name
I just know I gave my all and y'all won't feel the same
I just know I took it hard and y'all won't feel the pain
But I been holding on for years until the love was drained
It be hard to let it go when you see the worth
You won't understand the value until you see the work

You won't see tears I cried feeling all alone
How you go and change addresses when we built this home
How you even lie at night when you know you wrong
How you tell me you" ll be there but you never showed
I see the pictures can't believe it you got married first
I hope the wedding that he gave you finally heal the hurt
I just hope your mother's service let you see your worth
You can never fill the void on who you the love the most

I couldn't leave you out because you played a major part
I Can't pick on where to start but loving you was hard
I went against my intuition just to make it work
And still you tried to cover lies which only made it worse
How you say it's me you want but had him in your room
How you hurt the ones that love you is why I'm confused
Is it new or was it there for the whole time
These the thoughts that kept me up because I seen the signs
And here's congratulations to you on your first child
Just to think months before we kept the place loud
And I never got the closure that I felt I need
Understanding to find growth you got to finally greave

I lost you but found her so my hearts at peace
I think I finally found the person whose completed me
The 14th day of February never feels the same
Waving bye to my pass as I board the plane
And since I met you know my life will never be the same
And since I met you countless moments that are worth the frame
I thank god he ain't show you In my past life
Because through my trials learned to listen on the bad nights
Through my trials It's emotions I can't pass by
And through it all sometimes the suffer helps you find light

And I as write this say it's worth it since I found you
I tend to ask is it worthless if you found truth
We get lost and always worry how we find time
I get it right by giving thanks that I found mine
To make it off the battlefield help me cherish you
You Cured me from these lasting symptoms like some Thera flu
Valentines is only once but this is year-round
Looking at you while you sleep because you hear now
And whose to say who's left standing but I hope it's you
And I ain't gotta wake you up because this love is true