Closet Session Pt. 1 (Insecure & Desperate)

Oh my god just leave me alone
Shut the fuck up I'm not answering the phone
Cus that's a problem
For you to deal with on your own

I can't decide all of your life choices You wanna go to college but it's gonna destroy us
And that's fine
Because I still care

You hate the way I look I talk
My face, my mouth, my eyes and my walk
You say your sorry, but I know your not

You hate my clothes, my chest to my toes
My shoes and my feet, and my big fucking nose
You say you're sorry, but you lie a lot

Please just leave, I'm tired, ill grieve
For everything that I did so long ago
I quit, I'm done, I'll split, and I'll run
As far as my body can go

My mom, my dad, my friends are all sad
That tomorrow I leave this town
My house, my life, I want to fight
But no matter what happens I'll always feel down

You hate the way I look I talk
My face, my mouth, my eyes and my walk
You say your sorry, but I know your not

You hate my clothes, my chest to my toes
My shoes and my feet, and my big fucking nose
You say you're sorry, but you lie a lot

You hate the way I look I talk
My face, my mouth, my eyes and my walk
You say your sorry, but I know your not

You hate my clothes, my chest to my toes
My shoes and my feet, and my big fucking nose
You say you're sorry, but you lie a lot

You say you're sorry, but you lie a lot

I just wanna see your face
Every time, that I go out
I just wanna make your day, but
Every time I feel let down

I really miss you, I miss you
I hate you, I hate you, I missed you

I have a problem that no one can figure out except myself
Just get some help

I want you back so bad
I'd do anything to get you back
Cause I'm desperate, face it
I'm 100% desperate

Sitting on my basements stairs
I think about life and the empty chairs
Having company with me would be so nice
But I guess thats to hard cus that's just life

Im tired and lonely I really want to end it all
Im sorry I forgive you I know that it's not your fault
Like the days, the weeks, the months and the years
I just spent two hours relearning my fears

People and places are things I wish I could ignore
Drowsy and lazy I fall asleep onto you floor
Anxiety, depression, and a drinking problem to
All of the things that you hate but that I do

I'm sorry for doing this to your family
I wanna impress your dad but he Cleary can't see
He says "dang a musician, is he some kinda odd"
Go out into the real world and get a real job

I am so sorry, for being the way I am
I am so sorry, but I know you don't give a damn
I am so sorry, for making things up about me,
I am so sorry, but I'm better of lonely