Optimist

Some went wild, some went mad
Some, they hardened in the aftermath
For a while I wasn't sure what to do
Maybe I soon would join them too

Sixty miles from where I was
There was an air apparent and I caught a buzz
And laid back and laughed for a minute or two
'Cause what else can you do?

Thought I was Schopenhauer for a little bit
But it didn't hold
It's like a sign on a sidewalk sale
Everything must go

Now I'm trying to shake out of the shape I'm in
Trying to believe in belief
And trying to make friends with my life again
But it's harder than it used to be

Work hard to get somewhere
Buy a car, buy underwear
Put a little bit away
For the days of dark despair

So I sat and I analyzed
I paced and I agonized
Got blitzed out of my mind
Pretending I didn't care

Thought I was Nietzche for at least three hours
But it didn't help
'Cause it turns out no one needs me
To make a fool of myself

Now I'm trying to shake out of the shape I'm in
Trying to believe in belief
And trying to make friends with my life again
But it's harder than it used to be

I'm trying to find a way to be an optimist
Searching on my hands and knees
'Cause a cold calloused heart's seen a lot I guess
And it's harder than it used to be
Yes, it's harder than it used to be

And I was angry for a little bit
But it didn't last
'Cause no matter what you've done to your life
Everything must pass

So I'm trying to shake out of the shape I'm in
Trying to believe in belief
And trying to make friends with my life again
But it's harder than it used to be

And I'm trying to find a way to be an optimist
Searching on my hands and knees
Well, I think there was a time when it was obvious
But it's harder than it used to be
Yes, it's harder than it used to be