Suffocate

As much as this hurts to admit
Could you keep it secret?
I'm an act, it's a front, just a boy out for blood
So nobody can see I'm desperately avoiding bitter disappointment
Tell me if it starts to show
Them flashing lights are boring, probably should ignore 'em
Anyways please take me home

I spent my whole life trying to get here
Do I even want it now?
Should've tempered all my expectations
Or been somebody else
Since all this blood, I've been tasting
Suffocates me now

Over a decade under the influence of a teenage obsession
Being lead by the wrist, eyes wild, raised fist
A punk without a message desperately avoiding bitter disappointment
Yeah, I guess you've always known
Them flashing lights were all I ever really wanted
They'd rather blind us both

I spent my whole life trying to get here
Do I even want it now?
Should've tempered all my expectations
Or been somebody else
Since all this blood, I've been tasting

Suffocates me now

I'm desperately avoiding bitter disappointment
I'm desperately avoiding bitter disappointment

I spent my whole life trying to get here
Do I even want it now?
Should've tempered all my expectations
Or been somebody else
I spent my whole life trying to get here
And I even let you down
All this blood I've been tasting
Suffocates me now