Ether

Active on the surface
Silent at its depth
Must revisit this center
Within myself
Must I just be still
To know peace
Within my will
Could the mania
Fade away
Make me here
Another day
I'd look at things
Logically perceiving
Their meaning
And form
New beginnings
And opinions
In the present
Without hesitance
I'd associate
This negligence
With a self I
No longer know
And the pendulum
Would spiral
Out from sorrow
Making me whole
To decompress
My incompetence

Hard to find red
Linoleum inspiring
Can I accept my fate
The reality transpiring
Should I sabotage my
Hiring
Seasoning stained
Orange fingertips
Fucking chicken shit
Denial flips to
Accept this
As content
Mind wasted on
Frozen
Fried
Consumerism
Instant
Gratification
My knowledge
Useless
In the
Feeding grounds
Of infidelity
Once pledged
I'd live differently
Thought I was
Progressing
Why does this feel like
Retraction
Can I adapt to smile
And fake my way through
For you, child
I'm scared too
Done my duties within
The hour
Must sit and wait
For madness to
Devour me
Or can I devour it
This prison of culinary
Excrement
No pride in serving
Substance
Yes
Reality's sinking in
Isolation of means
Alone to ride the tide
Of patience
Must reside
In the depths
Overthinking menace
Replenish the motivation
I've spent

Have them
Dead in the dirt
Easier
Than a cure for the
Sickness of
This herd
Stealing my words
My voice a
Stagnant shadow
Of thought
Save me from my
Material form
Purpose greater than the
Mask I'm sworn into
Seek higher venue
Of this mind
You'll realize
Kindness isn't a virtue
It's what hurts you
Social constructs
Virtual
Manners
Worthless
In the animal
Kingdom
Don't you see them
Faltering
Newborn legs
Halt the sting
Of this cold water
Icy overflowing
Of spinal glowing
I am afraid of
Paralysation
And the pain
Of not knowing
I shall survive
Your growing
Inside
Time is slow motion
As I wait for your arrival
Attachment Primal
Must see you succeed
Surpass your rivals
Timelines a spiral of
Possibility