Maybe

I'm replaying every word we ever spoke
Trying to figure out which one made you choke
And if I would've said it differently
Would you still be here with me?
I'm drowning in my own sea of misery
You're dreaming of other company while I can't sleep
And my mom says you didn't deserve me
And I agree

But maybe if I gave a little more
And maybe if I had come over that night
We wouldn't be here, and you'd come back
And maybe if I talked a little less
And maybe if I hadn't shown you what a mess I am
We wouldn't be here
Now it's so clear that
Maybe you'd come back if I weren't so "me"

I'm making myself miserable trying to think what changed
Was it your feelings? Our dynamic?
I know it's not true when you say you just didn't want it
'Cause you used to want it
(This was what you wanted)
Now I'm pulling at my skin looking in the mirror
Maybe if I shattered it I wouldn't be the only one broken
And you seem fine
What's that like?

Maybe if I gave a little more
And maybe if I had come over that night
We wouldn't be here, and you'd come back
And maybe if I talked a little less
And maybe if I hadn't shown you what a mess I am
We wouldn't be here
Now it's so clear that
Maybe you'd come back if I weren't so "me"

I'm so me
This is so me
Writing for a guy, hoping I'll change his mind
This is so me
Standing here crying
Wishing you were still mine,
Wasting my life
Are you sad, or just fine?
Do you miss that first night?
If I change overnight, will you come back this time?
Is that other girl on your mouth or just your mind?
(This was what you wanted)
And maybe if I weren't insecure
Maybe if I took off my shirt
Maybe if I weren't bad with words
Or if I had taken my turn
Maybe we wouldn't be here, and you'd come back
Wouldn't have ever left if I weren't so "me"

No, we wouldn't be here,
Now it's so clear that maybe you'd come back if I weren't so "me"
(This was what you wanted)