Pillowcase

I've been going nowhere
Chasing after nothing
Something special for me
Is coming I just know it
Taking time to realize
That I'm not all that I
Think I am
I'm not a man I'm just a boy

Cause I wake up every morning and I feel okay
Dripping from my eyelids to my pillowcase
Cause I can't stand it
Took you for granted
Always told you that I'm sorry, I still feel the same
Didn't think you'd ever come to feel this way
But I'm still standing
Burning pictures of you inside of my head

Sparking a fire all by myself
Sparking it twice to keep on getting me high
Placing you higher up on the shelf
Now I'm placing you higher up like-

Cause you're the only one I run to
The only one I keep in this space
The only one who really wants to
Stick by
Me

(You see here kid
You gotta just go for it
Don't think about what comes after or what came before
You just gotta bend your knees
Take a deep breath
And jump)

Is this all that you want
Is this all that you want, my dear
Is this all that you want
If this is all that you want, then let me know what to do

Let me know, to find why
You're always on my mind
I'd be lying if I said I don't miss you
I don't mind if you lay
Your mistakes on my name
Though it drives me insane tryna fix you
Well if it's all just for the best, then I guess
But what if all the plays we make end up the same
Then oh well

(I hear you calling
And I'm coming back
To you, to you
To you)

If this is all the thanks that I get
I'd rather just be an asshole
(Now let's see if we got the facts straight)
Maybe if I lost all my shame, my regret
I'd get all the things that I asked for

If this is all the thanks that I get
I'd rather just be an asshole
Maybe if I lost all my shame, my regret
I'd get all the things that I asked for