That Day You Died (feat. Moøn)

I remember that day
Oh wow
I remember the way it slowed down
The emotion in my face drained out
Thoughts inside my brain screamed loud
No
Tryna get out but they never did
Try to rely on the medicine up in my head again (ahh)
Lost my best friend so my demons are denizens
Every second spent I drown in my head again
While they're chillin and settling
This is a state that I've never been
Wish I could tell you how dead I've been
Ritalin ecstasy need it right next to me
I need adrenaline

You wouldn't get it man this is pathetic
"Wanna be dead when I said it I meant it"
That's what my friend said
I try to avoid any thought of that
It's making me sad
The thought of that of that day that dreadful day
When I found out that you passed on had a mask on
Depressed and tryna hide it had a fight for your life every night
Where have my eyes been
Might've been able to help you
My sin?
I saw it I should've just rescued
Now I just miss you
Sat in the shower for hours bawling my eyes out
Cried out your name
Forgetting your face It's all going blank
I feel ashamed
Your death didn't make any pain go away
It transferred to people that stand by your grave every day
Trying to communicate to someone that's dead
I'm sick of the meds depression is set
You're lost you're gone is this what you want?
I mean
Is this what you wanted?
Didn't believe that people were haunted
Til you were gone and now I can see what they mean

I wish I could stop it
I wish I'd have stopped you