10 Bodies

Yeah
You try to understand just who I am and why I feel the pain
But girl, we both know what you did, so I choose you to blame
And I'm still wondering why like almost every day
I thought my life 'post to change when I hit 100K

I'm still fucked up in the head probably
You probably got 10 bodies
How you pull me down when I put you right over everybody?
You ain't got no loyalty
Girl, you just for everybody
Finally believe myself when I say I don't care about it
Nah nah

You said you loved me still, I know that you was lying
Got too much pride in yourself and left me crying
I still believe in myself when I feel like dying
I looked you in your eyes and told you I was trying

I did what I said I would
I hope you proud of me
Told me that we shouldn't speak again
You said that happily
I said "Ok bet" but deep inside you know I was drowning
I was this close slit my wrist, or jump right off a mountain
I know you ain't care at all
You treated me terrible
Just know this my last letter
My heart repairable
Swear I thought about you every day since I last saw your face
Hope you didn't forget me
Hope we meet again one day
Or maybe not cause you done changed so much
And you done broke my heart to pieces
Now I don't play so much
Now I just stand on business
I'm standing tall
And I'm brave, so what?
You wanna chip at my heart
Well you can't break on nothing, Bitch

You said you loved me still, I know that you was lying
Got too much pride in yourself and left me crying
I still believe in myself when I feel like dying
I looked you in your eyes and told you I was trying

At the end of the day
I'm the realest nigga that you ever done met darling
This the saddest thing that my brain could imagine
Way more than Beretta sparking
I was suicidal, not some suicide doors
Almost put one in my head about it
Said that you gon be honest
So just stand on what you said, be ready to die about it
Always thought that I needed love
But I got no more so I'mma try without it
Shit, I don't know if I still believe in love
But I write about it
I can't trust hoes, won't forget what you said
Yeah
How you gonna tell me that you wanna have my baby
Then walk out and play me?
Put me up in a position
Where it feel like you the only one who can save me
Said I wasn't good enough for you
Now I bossed up, I am not the same me
I still think about you, know you think that I'm crazy

I'm still fucked up in the head probably
You probably got 10 bodies
How you pull me down when I put you right over everybody?
You ain't got no loyalty
Girl, you just for everybody
Finally believe myself when I say I don't care about it
Nah nah

You said you loved me still, I know that you was lying
Got too much pride in yourself and left me crying
I still believe in myself when I feel like dying
I looked you in your eyes and told you I was trying