In My Blood

I used to be so shy
Back when I was a little boy
But I learned to speak my mind
Overflown with joy

When middle school arrived
I was snatched from my friends
Mom saw me saw me grow in Christ
As summer came and went

Never believed his name
Didn't ask for a thing
Isolated a while
The kids I met were weird
Slowly consumed by time
Becoming what I fear

My heart, my soul, my mind
My only friend
My only friend
I think I'm getting near
The deep end
The deep end

I used to be in love
Back when I got a little taller
Her love lasted three months
But mine lasted much longer

And this was just the start
My world's still falling apart
But I'm hoping you can change things
I even prayed that you save me
The thoughts will become too much
Addiction is in my blood
I'm just itching to smoke these drugs
To rid me of how it was

My heart, my soul, my mind
My only friend
My only friend
I'm sure of it now I'm
In the deep end
In the deep end

I feel you pulling away, no
I'm stuck I can't separate
So please cut the cord for me
I'm losing my only faith
I'm losing you