4th Of July (RIP BB)

Fuck, back out the chop for my bro we gone slide
Hit by myself if nobody gone ride
They turning me to a demon just look in my eyes
And I'm going hard bout the pain I do that every time
I'm getting numb to this shit and I know it ain't right
I gotta write me songs tryna keep em' alive
I know that Lala feeling like she can't get it right
A baby gone grow with no dad in his life
A baby gone grow up asking mama why
A baby didn't know that his daddy done died
A baby ain't knowing why his mama crying
When we talked on the phone I almost started crying
I know you feeling alone but we still by your side
And we might be feeling this way for the rest of our lives
A mama young, too much stress in her life
I don't know how that feel but I know about mine
Way too many of my fucking brothers done died
How the fuck you gone leave on the Fourth of July
We was screaming RIP Temp, gotta scream about you
And I couldn't show it at all, had to keep a good mood
I gotta stop all the faking and splitting in two
These mixed personalities kicking me out my groove
Fuck that, bitch better watch what I do
Man I ain't talking bout none, police watching too
Yeah they know we was close, they gone watch all my moves
Sorry if I'm harsh but I won't end up like Deuce
They showing fake love and that shit really killing me too
They only care when you dead and end up on the news
I bet some of them niggas posting had a hit on you too
Ima set that shit straight when I step in the, huh

I feel lost
I feel lost

I don't let anyone in, so how the fuck could they help me
But you could let me know if you need me today
Ima pick up the phone and I'll be on my way
No matter where you at, Ima find me a way
Let's just have a conversation, know that I need it today
Don't even gotta talk about me and throw extra grief in your face
Cause really the way I see it there's enough on your plate
And still you could let me know if you need me, won't say your name
I remember the time that I needed you aye (girl you)
You comforted me you ain't push me away
And I really wanna return the favor, okay (can I do that)
And I'll be honest I still won't know what to say
But if you need to vent then Ima listen today
And if you just need a hug then you can get it today
Let you go through it alone, I'm telling you no way
I been there before, and I don't want you to end up like me
I never want nobody to end up like me
I'm so numb to the pain I'm just fine when they leave
Make a song and just be in my mind for a week
I know that ain't long but I'm done with the feeling you see
I hope everything works out and you don't end up like me
You, you
Do, what you
Must do
For you to survive
And I'll be by your side, yeah