dawn

It's probably for the better
That you never came to see me
When I was left alone
In that dark room along north 5th street
I was
Sick and confused
Choking on dust and in no mood
To be that ten out of ten
That you once told our friends
You could turn me into

And every few days
On my screen it's your face
I should call you
And try to explain where I've been
How it was nothing personal
When I forget how to cope
I lock myself out from the world
And even your presence
As bright as it is
It can cut like a sword

That's why it's hard to believe it
I hear your voices again
Call me out of a darkness
I don't remember being in
Oh it's strange not to feel it
No more sinking in my chest
I'm coming out of a darkness
I don't remember being in
I don't remember being in

Breaking through that desire for nothing
I had to learn to see the beauty in the numbness
Before I could start to feel again
But now I feel, oh oh oh
So every few days oh I write something up I should get to you
I sent it; you read it; I saw it; but you ain't respond
I can't blame you
Cause you're happy with him
And I can't pretend
That you'll wait at home
For a soldier abroad
In a war that won't end

Still it's hard to believe it
Dawn is breaking again
I'm coming out of a darkness
I don't remember being in
Oh I couldn't explain it
No more choking on my breath
I'm coming out of a darkness
I don't remember being in

So next time that I feel
I fill the same colors on every page
Keep turning; keep turning
The paint will fade away
Next time that I feel
No one wants to hear the same damn page
Keep turning; keep turning
The words will fade away
Their faces fade away

Yeah it's hard to believe it
But I swear I'll start to now
I'm coming out of a darkness
That defined my life but I'm getting out
I'm getting out
I'm getting out
(Hard to believe it)
(Dawn is breaking again)
(Don't remember being in)
(Hard to believe it)

But I know, if I ever forget
I might slip back in