Nevergoingbacktohowitwas

I've been doing this shit since I was like sixteen
Told me id be nothing when I told them this was my dream
Told me I was to young and to naive
Told me go to college pick a trade or do something yeah realistic
But I'm sorry momma I got something that better fits my interest (yeah)

Looking like yeah euphoria
These drugs come with paranoia
You come with a secret call you Victoria (ugh) (ugh)
I'll never go back to my past popping ya shit just like a virgin
Yeah my head still hurting feel like they doing surgery
You gonna leave yeah I'm use to loneliness
It's one my strengths (yeah) you never noticed it
You couldn't understand the cards that I had dealt
I like being alone that's why you couldn't help

Keep it amilli I'm doing this music shit repping my city
I'm doing this yeah to buy ice on pinky's
Never thought I could get so lit (sike)
I don't care bout the ice or the fame tryna do this to go make a change
Everyone in my whole life thought id be nothing now they want me to go pop out to functions
Asking me questions like how am I doing that with my life
Told them I woke up one day and got lit on the mic
But its cause one day I died like twice
Died like twice whatch you mean
Fuck around now and ill kill that beat
Kill that beat mr clean yeah ill do that murder scene (oh)
Nobody know that I use to pop beans
Now I got flows like Tory Lanez and Baby Keem and I use them when I need
Like when I need to switch up on your hoe shell ask me to go fast and to go slow (oh)

I know I fucked up but you fucked up the most
Tired of getting compared to everyone I know
Tired of hearing how I got trauma and that you don't
But it's not my fault got something in my brain that won't turn off
Tired getting compared to everyone I love
And it sucks that I already went through all this hell
But they don't understand what I have become
Told them that I'm use to loneliness its what I love
And ill never never never go back to how it was