Silent Shadows

Living in the past
Leaves us dying in the present
Time is precious
But it's also a weapon

I know some people trying to hate
But I'm just trying to change
Take a break get some space
Embracing pain in my own way
Sorry I ain't call for days
I just don't know what to say
Hard to even face the man in the mirror every day
Please pardon me
If we parted our ways
I take responsibility for anything that got away
Guessed I chased the wrong things
Still a kid despite my age
Always in the mood to play so I was always running game

I was a fool it's a shame
It ain't cool it's hella lame
How I made some people run away and never come my way again
They wishing that I'd burn in flames
Memories left like a stain
Wishing it could get erased
Go back in time a couple frames
Rewind it back & fix mistakes
But you can't
So I apologize before its too late and one of us hits the gates
For goodness sakes
Even though it shouldn't change
How you look me in the face
I hope it will relieve the aches and cease the hate
Alleviate anything creeping late
At night when you can't sleep and stay up thinking things
Layed up drinking things
Cause your brain stays up repeating things
You wishing one day you break the chain and cease the pain
Turn the page and leave them days
In the past
Keep away
Sneak away
From your thoughts
Get your peace dream free today
Release demons and just decrease the hate

I know some people trying to hate
But I'm just trying to change
Take a break get some space
Embracing pain in my own way
Sorry I ain't call for days
I just don't know what to say
Hard to even face the man in the mirror every day
Please pardon me
If we parted our ways
I take responsibility for anything that got away
Guessed I chased the wrong things
Still a kid despite my age
Always in the mood to play
So I was always running game

Coping by smoking and joking
Keeping my distance like covid
Hoping I don't lose composure
Closer and closer to blowing up
Can't control these emotions
Holding back Oceans of pain
Dove in and rode all the waves Somedays are harder to take
Roll with the motions as tears roll down my face
Feeling so broken hoping that I'll catch a break
It kills me to focus knowing my son has been named
After what I chase and create though I'm not there to raise
My boy whom I love and miss so much everyday
I suffer and take enough and what I'm made to embrace
Fuck it sucks
Feeling so drained
Not feeling ok not sure what remains But yet I'm sure I'll sustain
I've made some grave mistakes now I'm feeling dead everyday
Feeling fed up with all this shit on my plate
Still haven't ate but I'll stomach the aches
Until I get enough of this pain
Keep living loving Lyrix till im fucking erased

I know some people trying to hate
But I'm just trying to change
Take a break get some space
Embracing pain in my own way
Sorry I ain't call for days
I just don't know what to say
Hard to even face the man in the mirror every day
Please pardon me
If we parted our ways
I take responsibility for anything that got away
Guessed I chased the wrong things
Still a kid despite my age
Always in the mood to play
So I was always running game