i scare me more

I've gotta call 'em, I'll take the fall and
Spill my guts and get out of my skin
Yeah, I've been real reckless, yeah, I've been restless
Yeah, oh I toss and I turn, yeah my heart starts to burn
Yeah, I rehearse, yeah, I practice lines
My train of thought, perpetually occupied
I'm on the move, I'm on the go
I chug and chew, yeah, and don't say no, no no

It's rush-rush-rushing back, unraveling from bits of black
Remapping all the little I said
Memories pop in my mind and they're all out of align
My heart is pounding like dawn of the dead
Now they're choke-choke-choking me, I forget that I can breathe
My ashes in a mass on the floor
I get wrapped up in the arms of all the hurt and the harm
Who needs the monsters, all of the gore?
I scare me more

It's provocation, actualization
It's unnerving, it's say I confess
It's I've got secrets, it's nights are sleepless
It's as I bend and I break, oh my mind starts to ache
At things he said to me, at things she did to me
Was he holding me, oh, that's torture see
Things she asked me, ways he'd love me
How I'm lacking, see, how I'm cracking teeth, oh

It's rush-rush-rushing back, unraveling from bits of black
Remapping all the little I said
Memories pop in my mind and they're all out of align
My heart is pounding like dawn of the dead
Now they're choke-choke-choking me, I forget that I can breathe
My ashes in a mass on the floor
I get wrapped up in the arms of all the hurt and the harm
Who needs the monsters, all of the gore?
I scare me more

I'm trying not to overthink crying in the kitchen sink
Memories are so intense, I gotta take this breath, oh

It's rush-rush-rushing back, unraveling from bits of black
Remapping all the little I said
Memories pop in my mind and they're all out of align
My heart is pounding like dawn of the dead
Now they're choke-choke-choking me, I forget that I can breathe
My ashes in a mass on the floor
I get wrapped up in the arms of all the hurt and the harm
Who needs the monsters, all of the gore?
I scare me more