It's a Suicide

I take a deep breathe like I hit the weed pen
You don't want this smoke, going off the deep end
Catch myself at times, tripping like I want to die
Hold myself together because I don't want to be that guy
No use in playing tough, been around I've seen enough

Devils everywhere waiting
For someone to call their bluff
Find a place I can chill with no adverse effect
A shift in energy in the air, protect your neck

Surrounded by the jinn, look around I see a trend
People in the world falling victim, ego plays to win
Discern the lies that you tell yourself
Inside the mind

Public enemies in disguise, we got to shine
Mesmerized by the baddies on the regular
Distractions calling for attention on the cellular
Fascinated by the many things that came to be
It's entertaining, bring it back to reality

Ain't no secret, public record
Clout has got a hold on you like the cheddar
Suicide, it's a suicide
Can't let it go to your head
It's a suicide

Stumble through the mess when the vision blurry
Got me living under stress
Feeling like I need to hurry
Must confess, have my moments
When I want to quit

Reassure mom, don't you worry, I'm on top of it
Got the will to make a change for the greater good
Learn along the way what to say so I'm understood
Got the keys to the world, power to create
Capable of many things, don't seal your fate

Wish you could see the good
From a new perspective
The present is a gift, open up a new dimension
We try to progress, not regress into the mess
The message clear

Actions louder than the cannabis
All eyes on me, noticed like a prodigy
Views get projected in my face, it ain't hard to see
The world is staged and
I'm playing at my own show
A natural, fuck a script, I lead my own role

Ain't no secret, public record
Clout has got a hold on you like the cheddar
Suicide, it's a suicide
Can't let it go to your head
It's a suicide

Get behind the wheel,
What drives you to make the choice
To go rogue, can it be another voice
Hey
Me, myself and I
A holy trinity
Look me in the eyes
Tell me what you scared to see

Hey, no honor in pride, purge the toxins inside
Purify the space in the heart, I need to get right
You can't mask what you can't hide, it's lonely
I share with you the truth, that's a testimony

Deep inside, tug of war fighting for the soul
The line is drawn out, got to have self control
Grounded as can be, no misconception
Deliver me, set me free for correction
Clever as can be, the enemy in me
Wants to see a G self destruct so willingly
I pray for strength

Get me through the darkest days
Help me find the way out
God be the only one i praise

Ain't no secret, public record
Clout has got a hold on you like the cheddar
Suicide, it's a suicide
Can't let it go to your head
It's a suicide