Turn Out

Your eyes reveal the pain you feel inside
And your eyes cannot hide
What you hope no one will ever find
Dark emotions hidden by a smile
Inner pain seeping through
The walls that no one can see

I cannot help but blame myself
I could have been a better friend of help
Had I truly cared less about saving face
I could have reached out my hand to bear the burden with you
Instead I was too absorbed with myself
Instead of praying for you I held a knife to your back
God convicted me of who I used to be
How can I help you up after I held you down

Turn out your hatred
Turn out selfishness
Turn out your pity
Turn back to your God
You have every right to point at me
With the question, why wasn't I there?
You have every right to blame on me
And I'd stand rightly judged by you

I want to hold you close, but you're too far away
I want to tell you I know, but you don't care anyway
So many times have I tried to impress you with these words
Deep inside my heart they were worth all but dirt
And now I really care, I realize it's too late
I've ruined all we had, wish I could clean this slate
And now I want to help, and you're to far to care
I want to bring you back, but who am I to share?

Turn back to your God