crow's nest

Always been the one they laugh at
I don't wanna stay here, stay here
Screw these pointless conversations, ayy
Always been the one they laugh at
This party wasn't what I thought
I don't wanna take these shots
Wish I never bought this ice cream cake

(Reaching somewhere)
(I don't know yet)
(Leave me footprints)
(All the way to the crow's nest)

I've always been a little different, hard to understand
My life go constantly down paths that I can't ever plan
Had to leave the party early, couldn't stop me push through
Side effect of always dreamin', I might never land

Lonely road, I walk alone with all my demons now
I wish I had more control, I don't mean to shout
Into the darkness, tryna find who I used to be
But as I stare up at the stars, can't remember now

Yeah, I see that red spot getting bigger on my shirt
Sitting still inside my fridge 'cause my soul is feeling burnt
I'm the worst, 'bouta burst into tears
Haven't been a model or to church in like years

What's my name? What's my purpose?
The more I find, the more I'm uncertain
Fruit tastes bad, snakes in their braces
Handful of seeds that I'll cast to the ravens

I guess I've been goin' through shit, goin' through shit
Problems hid behind my two lips, this is useless
Lately, everything get heavy and it drag down
Even though I wanna leave, would you stay 'round?

Swear, I'm trying not to hold back, but I hold back
Only one I trust, you know that, hope you know that
Wishing I'll be in your arms if I wake up
You the shield and my armor when the pain comes
Don't fall for me

Fall for me flawlessly falling into place
Running to their death, why they treat it like a race?
Waiting for the sun to come back, hope I'm ready
It's heavy, my breath and my legs feel like jelly

Tell me, swim along, and sing to the sun
Tell me, swim along, and sing to the sun, yeah
You can laugh at me all that you want
It's the fools that be running their tongue, yeah

(Reaching somewhere)
(I don't know yet)
(Leave me footprints)
(All the way to the crow's nest)

Sick of waking up late, it's almost noon already
I haven't been feeling myself, tryna change the settings
Tryna change how I live, I'm turning into a swine
Call of Duty, and movies taking up most of my time

I should go and see my brother more
He misses telling all his friends about our pillow forts
I moved out on my own 'bout a year ago
Feels like we're friends, but I used to be his hero

What's that noise?
Must be a ghost
Holy Spirit take me
I'm making you host

(Reaching somewhere)
(I don't know yet)
(Leave me footprints)
(All the way to the crow's nest)