Ok

Uh
I'm just having to deal with this stupid shit all by myself
And I can't get any help and on top of that
We haven't really been spending that much-
Time together, and I'm fucking losing my shit
Now now baby don't leave
I know I'm fucked up in the head but please
I think if you wait a little more I'll have a couple bands
Damn
Even through these tough times
I still got

Nobility
I still show nobility
Even though my ability to rhyme
Ranks me high far above my peers
I shed too many tears (Yea)
The past few weeks all I'm seeing is tears
Tears from the sky (Uh)
Tears from my eyes (Uh)
I wish I could just go back to the simple times (Yea)
Not a worry in my mind
Not a hurry for my time (Tick, tick bitch)
Nowadays even when I see a sunny day
I'm lookin' at the clouds (Damn)
Avoiding all the crowds (Yea)
I used to be an optimist
Trauma hit me hard
And for that I'm not so proud
I can't help but feel like the time I'm living on is borrowed
Let me be lemme drown in my sorrow (Yea, yea)
Try to hold it in but the other day I let out a few drops
And I don't think imma tell anybody how I feel
I don't wanna be the one to kill the mood

I try to run away
I try to run away
Run away, run away, run away
From my problems
Waiting everyday
Hoping that tomorrow I'll be ok (Maybe)
Watching days go by
Nothing on my mind
I see the sun shine
And I'm thinking Ill be fine (Baby)
Then my mind speaks
And I hate the way it sounds
Telling me nobody cares if you still around

And still
I see the sun is shinning through the clouds
But still
I can't stop looking at the clouds, still
I can't see past tomorrow
Murder on my mind, all the bad thoughts I cargo (Cargo)
My homie said "Damn I can't wait when we hang next week"
And I'm just thinking
I don't think I'm making it through this week
I know it sounds silly and
I'm not for real, not really
But its just the way my mind speaks, uh

(Harmonizing)
Brain haze
Feeling like I'm gonna lose my mind
Feeling like I'm gonna lose my mind
Feeling like I'm losing my time
Feeling like I'm losing my mind
Feeling like I'm losing my, time

I try to run away
I try to run away
Run away, run away, run away
From my problems
Waiting everyday
Hoping that tomorrow I'll be ok (Maybe)
Watching days go by
Nothing on my mind
I see the sun shine
And I'm thinking Ill be fine (Baby)
Then my mind speaks
And I hate the way it sounds
Telling me nobody cares if you still around

Damn
Everyday is a new hell (Yea)
A new hell I create for myself
I think on the low, I truly hate myself (Yea)
I hate everything about me
And being lonely doesn't help (Don't help at all)
Wake up in the morning same day, same shit
Nothing new come up, no good show up
And it doesn't help everybody treat me bad
Never let anybody know I'm sad
Hide it behind the laughs
All the shit I have (Yea)
Bring all the struggles that I'm facing in my path
The more you grow (Uh-huh)
The more you have (Preach)
The less life you got left in yourself
But that ain't gonna stop me chasing this dream
Every mother fucking second that I get to breathe
And God forbid I forget to breathe
That's when the panic goes attack
And I got to dial back

I try to run away
I try to run away
Run away, run away, run away
From my problems
Waiting everyday
Hoping that tomorrow I'll be ok (Maybe)
Watching days go by
Nothing on my mind
I see the sun shine
And I'm thinking Ill be fine
Then my mind speaks
And I hate the way it sounds
Telling me nobody cares if you still around

I don't even wanna go outside
I don't wanna talk to my guys
I don't wanna walk in my house
I wanna stay in bed lifeless with my thoughts
But
I can't let myself get back down to that point again
Not again