Muscle Memory

I'm one step forward and ten steps back
I see your face when all goes black
Everything I think I'm past
Is starting to show signs of relapse

I still hear your laughter in my head
I still wake up to an empty bed
I reach for your hand and touch my fear
I can't separate my past
From what's right here

I'm all alone night after night
Begging my heart to stay in this fight
Cause my mind has a mind of its own
Whenever I think I'm getting closer
My muscle memory starts taking over
I feel like I'm losing it

I think about that car radio
Where we sang our hearts out
To Old Town Road
But never in a million did I ever know
That I'm taking solos wherever I go

I still hear your voice in empty tombs
That masquerade as noisy crowded rooms
I reach for your hand and touch the dead
Cause all that's left of you
Is what's inside my head

I'm all alone night after night
Begging my heart to stay in this fight
Cause my mind has a mind of its own
Whenever I think that I'm getting closer
My muscle memory starts taking over
I feel like I'm losing it

I still hear you whisper in my soul
You will never have control
But I will fight with all that's left in me
With my muscle memory